More Gabapentin, Please

Tomorrow I would like to call Dr. Rob and ask if he would not mind me increasing my gabapentin dosage. I had a relatively high-pain afternoon, and it was getting worse this evening. Just like yesterday. I was gearing up for another horrible evening.

My roommate gave me my bedtime gabapentin pill with my dinnertime pills at 7:00, and I popped it right into my mouth. I had taken my afternoon pill at 3:00, so it was early... but I was in pain and it seemed worth a try.

About an hour later, I was feeling much better. I had a low-pain evening. I suppose it could be chance, but I would like to give it a try.

Sensory:

-Pins and needles: 2

-Tingles: 1

-Dysesthetic pain: 6

-Paresthesias: 1

-Numbness: 4

-Vision: 2, but getting closer to 3

-Nerve pain: 5

-Hearing: 0

Motor:

-Walking: 2, used the loser scooter at Target again.

-Sore muscles: 2

-Fine motor: 1

-Weak muscles: 5

-Spasticity: 4

Cognitive:

-Language processing: 2

-Memory: 1

-Attention: 0

-Confusion: 1

General:

-Fatigue: 4

-Balance: 1

-Sleep: 3, bad dreams :(

-Bladder: 2

-Proprioception: 1

Emotions: Random tears this afternoon. I was tired and in pain, and my body felt overstimulated. But still... tears? I was feeling overwhelmed, thinking I HAVE MS AND IT IS NOT GOING AWAY. I do not know why I am having so much trouble with the renewal of my diagnosis. Isn't this what I wanted? I certainly did not want lupus or NMO. I did not want MS, but I also did not want to be kicked into limbo land. I need treatment. Emotions are unpredictable.