I Was Afraid I Would Do That

First problem: Just after I turn off the light, I remembered my gabapentin. Right now I am taking one and a half pills, and there was no way I was going to go all the way downstairs to cut a pill in half. So I took one pill from the stash I keep on a bookshelf in my room for just this purpose. That was around 11:00/11:30. I was up late blogging (impulsive!).

About ten minutes later, as I was drifting off, I remembered that I had already taken my pill and a half at 8:45! I was quite sure that I had taken it when I arrived home from the class I taught. I became confused later and thought that I had not taken it.

I was afraid this would happen at some point.

Next problem: I did not sleep well. I woke up at 3:30, because I heard scratching at the screen. I imagined something outside... maybe a bird? I was not worried about it, but it was keeping me up. I turned on the fan to block the noise and went back to sleep.

I woke up again at 4:30, this time with a nightmare. I calmed down but unfortunately began thinking of a work situation. Not a problem necessarily, but something I need to take care of and which requires some brainstorming and planning. I tired several times to turn off my brain and sleep, but I kept forgetting. That has happened to me before! Forgetting that I want to sleep. I gave up and got out of bed at 7:00.

Now I am exhausted. I want to sleep. Or cry.