A 10? You Can Do That?

I got really wiped out today, but I did not do much more than usual. Well... one thing was different which was that I had absolutely no break. I sat down and ate, but I was reading a test manual while I ate. Then I tested a client during my usual break time, where I would veg out in a comfy chair for a few minutes. I do not know if that is why I was so tired, but I really was.

I was reading a book about Fatigue and MS, and it had some charts to fill out about fatigue--perfect, after the way things went today! They had examples of how the charts might be filled out. As I was looking one over, it had things like "Activity: Walking the dog. Fatigue level: 10." Level 10 is an option??

I am so hesitant to score anything at a 10. That is the worst, right? I always think it is possible to feel worse. Maybe I need to rethink this. For me, if I were at a level 10, I would be physically unable to walk a dog. For me, level 10 is functional paralysis.

Sensory:

-Pins and needles: 1

-Tingles: 0

-Dysesthetic pain: 3

-Paresthesias: 2, feeling like being grabbed around my leg or foot

-Numbness: 2

-Vision: 2, some eye pain today but maybe less blurry

-Nerve pain: 5

-Hearing: 1, some tinnitus--and I did not use the fan last night

Motor:

-Walking: 2

-Sore muscles: 3

-Fine motor: 1

-Weak muscles: 5

-Spasticity: 5

Cognitive:

-Language processing: 0

-Memory: 1

-Attention: 0

-Confusion: 0

General:

-Fatigue: 7

-Balance: 1

-Sleep: 1

-Bladder: 0

-Proprioception: 1

Emotions: Some stuff simmering, I think. That visit last Wednesday really brought things up! Surprising. Since that time, I have struggled with accepting that MS is really here to stay, that things are probably going to get worse, etc. I think there is more in there ("there" being inside of me), but I am not sure what it is. I think I need to go cry.