Crappy Day

My brain is shot, I am dead tired, my vision is blurry off and on, and I am trying to record my activities and symptoms every hour like the fatigue book recommended, but I keep forgetting!!

And there is a stink bug on the blinds. Just saying.

I practiced the piano piece for Sunday this morning and made just two or three minor mistakes. I guess I will run through it every day and let whatever happens happen on Sunday. I do not think there is anything more I can do to make my body work better. It is going to do what it wants to do. Hello, today I was able to play it despite feeling super crappy. Totally unpredictable.

Sensory:

-Pins and needles: 1

-Tingles: 0

-Dysesthetic pain: 3

-Paresthesias: 1, buzzing in my foot

-Numbness: 1

-Vision: 3

-Nerve pain: 3

-Hearing: 1, tinnitus this morning

(But it is only 7:30. Prime pain time is just beginning.)

Motor:

-Walking: 4

-Sore muscles: 2

-Fine motor: 1

-Weak muscles: 6

-Spasticity: 4

Cognitive:

-Processing: 1

-Memory: 3

-Attention: 1

-Confusion: 1

General:

-Fatigue: 8

-Balance: 1

-Sleep: 1

-Bladder: 0

-Proprioception: 1

-X: 0

-XX: 5

Emotions: Continue to suck. As in, sucking back the tears. I was fine for most of today. Just waiting for them to catch up with me. I am predicting that I will have a sobbing breakdown on Friday.

I have felt some anger today. At having MS and also at various people. I think it is mostly because I am frustrated with my body and transferring emotions (totally making that up but betting it is a real psychology thing).