Medication now!

Remember that old Seinfeld episode? "Serenity now!" I need MEDICATION NOW. I want to get better or at least stem the tide. I am awaiting Alyssa's email with baited breath.

The numbness was encroaching on all of my limbs today, particularly in the afternoon. I went to choir practice, and between that and the weakness, it was tough. We were asked to stand a lot, and I sometimes had to sit while everyone else was standing. I love choir, and I am glad that I went... but I did push down emotions that threatened to overwhelm me a few times. Just thinking about what I could do and now cannot. It is sometimes upsetting.

Sensory:

-Pins and needles: 1

-Tingles: 0

-Dysesthetic pain: 3

-Paresthesias: 0

-Numbness: 3

-Vision: 2, but I am happy that I have not had pain for a few days

-Nerve pain: 4

-Hearing: 0

Motor:

-Walking: 1

-Sore muscles: 1

-Fine motor: 1

-Weak muscles: 4

-Spasticity: 2

Cognitive:

-Language processing: 1

-Memory: 0

-Attention: 0

-Confusion: 0

General:

-Fatigue: 3

-Balance: 1

-Sleep: 3

-Bladder: 0

-Proprioception: 1, and I realized that this is part of the reason playing the piano is harder. Normally I can just put my arms out and know where they will be on the keyboard--I do not need to look down, even if I need to jump an octave or something. Not so now.

Emotions: Blah. I am so sick of emotions. I know that I need to sit and feel, but I do not want to.