Monday, November 21, 2011

Not a Low-Pain Day

I seriously think that my body overreacts to changes in barometric pressure. A new front rolled in today, bringing rain and pain. (Aren't I the clever one.)

I forgot to comment the other day about something my boss said to me. "Wow, you look really healthy. I know you have struggled with your health (please, you don't know the half of it), but you look really, really good." Uhh... thanks? I have improved my makeup proficiency, and I fixed my hair decently that day. I do not know what else to say. Maybe because I lost 20 pounds and have kept it off?

The clinical trial nurse, Alyssa, emailed me. She was asking which day is good for rescheduling the screening visit.

I hope the test results are ready quickly. I really want to get on medication.

Sensory:
-Pins and needles: 5, I was sitting in a meeting today and having trouble paying attention, because all I could think was, "My left leg is going numb... pins and needles... this is surreal. These people have no idea that I cannot feel my foot, and the rest of my leg has horrible pins and needles." I feel really alone in those moments.
-Tingles: 1
-Paresthesias (burning): 4, in my feet and... wait for it... butt! You cannot say that my MS does not have a sense of humor. Sick humor, unfortunately.
-Paresthesias (other): 0
-Numbness: 4, lost feeling in my whole left foot for a while, and also a new permanent numbness: my right baby toe. Now I have a matching set of numb toes.
-Vision: 3, difficulty focusing, seeing double with the letters on street signs, light things look like they are glowing around them. Floaters as always, but I will just bring them up from now on if they get bad.
-Nerve pain: 6 all down my left sciatic nerve--the butt nerve's connected to the...calf nerve

Motor:
-Walking: 1
-Sore muscles: 2
-Fine motor: 2
-Weak muscles: 5
-Spasticity: 2

Cognitive:
-Language processing: 2
-Memory: 2
-Attention: 1
-Confusion: 1

General:
-Fatigue: 3
-Balance: 2
-Sleep: 2
-Bladder: 1

Emotions: I cried a bit a couple of times this evening. Now I cannot remember why. Ah, the MS brain. But I do remember that I sucked it back in. I suppose I will let it out on Wednesday, when I do not need to work. Then I can allow myself the luxury of grieving.

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