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I couldn't continue last night. I was handling it fine and didn't even cry when I told my friend and my sister. But around 9:00 pm I began to cry and had trouble stopping. My newly assigned home teachers came over around 10:00 to give me a blessing... I sort of wanted to say never mind, because I was ready to pass out around 8:00. I didn't end up going to bed until 10:30 or 11:00, but I woke up several times during the night and couldn't sleep any more after 4:30. I can't believe that! I was (am) exhausted. Why can't I sleep?

Crying + exhaustion = headache. This sucks. I feel like I could fall asleep any second, but apparently I can't!

I guess I'll take a shower now. I still have an hour until I leave for the hospital, but I have a feeling I'll be in slow motion today, just because I'm so tired. Darn, I can't eat. I feel nauseated.

I'm going to have a lumbar puncture today, aka a spinal tap. I'm nervous about it and hope I don't get the shooting-down-the-legs pains or a spinal headache. The impending hurricane only adds to my nervousness, that I won't be able to get the follow up treatment I need. Or that we have to evacuate while I'm supposed to be on bed rest (I think you have to lie flat for 24-48 hours afterward). I really don't think those things will happen, but there's always the what if.

OK, now I'm really going to take a shower.