Hanging On... with White Knuckles

I'm still hanging on to the roller coaster car. I rested this morning then got up and swept the branches and leaves off the deck. That was hard, but I enjoyed the exercise and fresh air. I even swept the front walk and laughed when the grounds crew came by 10 minutes later. Well, I'm sure it was good for me to be up.

This afternoon my headache has been worse. I suppose I should call it a migraine. I've never had one before, but I think that's what it is. I persuaded my friend to take me to a movie, so that I could get out of the house. I brought a pillow so that I could keep my head as low and supported as possible. The movie was good, and I enjoyed it, but all that sitting didn't do good things for my migraine.

On the way home it was so bad, and I begged my friend to stop at the grocery store so I could get some Red Bull. I ended up finding a natural drink that had as much caffeine as Red Bull but without all the chemicals. It's a Jamba energy drink. It's great that it was natural and didn't have incomprehensible ingredients, but it didn't taste any better than Red Bull. I guess caffeine tastes disgustingly.

So now I'm lying flat in a darkened room, feeling jittery from the caffeine. My headache is mostly gone.

The movie I saw was called One Day, and parts of it made me think. The takeaway from the movie was not to let opportunities pass you by and not to be so wrapped up in things aren't important that you waste years of your life. One quote that resonated with me was, "Whatever tomorrow brings, at least we had today."

Whatever tomorrow brings me, at least today I can walk and talk (mostly ;) and work and do things. I'll feel better, and I'll feel worse, and I should prepare for that, but I should probably focus mostly on today.

I was also thinking on the ride home how short our time on earth is, and that most things we do here don't really matter. Or at least, most things I do don't really matter. Sure, I'm making a difference in the lives of little children, and that's great. But the time I spend watching TV, using the internet, etc. are just wasted moments. I need to remember why I'm here, who sent me, and the limited time I have. It's like I'm away at college. I need to learn as much as I can while I'm here and not get caught up in partying. (Of course I don't really party... That was a metaphor.)

And when I worry about paying my mortgage or buying all the medications I'll need or keeping my job so I have medical insurance, I try to remember that God provides for the needs of the lilies and notices the sparrows. He will take care of me if I have faith.