Oops, Forgot

On Tuesday, I was too busy to blog--I got home late from seeing a play. And yesterday, I just forgot.

I do not remember much about how I was feeling on Tuesday. I suppose that I could if I tried, but that is just exhausting for me. I do recall that I was having problems with losing feeling in my legs. Or partially losing feeling. Pins and needles, numbness, blah. It is a problem any time I am sitting.

That problem continued into yesterday. I am worried about it. I do not want to go numb permanently in my lower limbs.

Gosh, my fingers are clumsy. It is harder to type.

Did I blog already about my baby toe? My left baby toe is numb all the time. And part of the lateral edge of my foot, kind of under where the bone sticks out. That doesn't bother me, but it was a surprising find. I think I knew that I was losing feeling in that area. I use this spray stuff to try to kill toenail fungus (hope springs eternal), and I thought I had missed that toe. It didn't feel wet and cold like the other toes. But I could see that it had been sprayed. So I touched it, and it was like touching rubber.

I'm still pretty forgetful. I am sleeping okay. I am weak. My spasticity has not been bad. My fatigue has been moderate--I do okay most of the day then collapse in the evening.

Sometimes my language is so circuitous. And not just because I lose my train of thought. It's a language processing thing.

The forgetfulness is starting to bug me. I seriously forget what I am doing all the time. It does come back to me. But what if one day it doesn't?

Last night I hurt my hand when I smacked into a wall while walking, just after getting up. Darn balance. I was frustrated about that. My hand wasn't hurt badly... it's just a little sore today. But what if one day I really lose my balance, and I fall?

I guess I should not think about the "what if one day"s.