Church

Although I was feeling poorly, I went to choir practice before church last Sunday. I really enjoyed it, but it wore me out. I was tired before church even began. I thought about pushing through but ended up leaving after sacrament meeting. Fatigue, dizziness, and horrible, burning pain in my legs and hips. The textured upholstery on the pews and chairs felt like sitting on sandpaper--with a sunburn. And my arms felt so heavy.

All of those issues do not add up; they multiply. Or they work on a logarithmic scale. Combined, it is not 8 fatigue + 5 dizziness + 9 pain + 4 heaviness = 26 suffering. More like 126. Sort of like how blindness sucks, deafness sucks, but deaf-blindness? Watch out.

And so I have a dilemma. Go to choir and probably not be able to stay for all of church, or forgo that joy so that I can handle at least two meetings or maybe all three. It is a hard choice. And this week will be super hard, because the choir is singing. Singing is effortful, but when you perform, it is standing. I never stand for five minutes straight, but less stand and sing for five minutes! I am planning to stand behind the piano and lean into it, let it bear some of my weight. So with practice before church, my interpreting workout during the first meeting, the choir number during the first meeting... hm, will I be able to do my interpreting workout during the second meeting and my piano workout during the third meeting? Goodness. At least I have help for interpreting. But I still need to do some. I wish I had a nice recliner to sit on. With armrests and a head support. Oh gosh, I just realized that a wheelchair would fit the bill! Haha, that is funny.

At least I am not averse to using one, like a lot of people seem to be. I would not mind it a bit. I think. I would mind if I could not walk at all, because I could not get things off shelves, etc. But if I could walk to get in and out of a car, drive, wheel around to save effort... Of course, I would need a motorized chair. My wimpy arms would not take me far!